Honor: quit licking your wounds

"If you honor it by not going your own way and not doing as you please or speaking idle words, then you will find your joy in the Lord" i cant get past this. Why are we all so selfish? We try hard then we try harder things get hard usually because we try to do it on our own. we get strong in our own mind so we do "us" our way and then we fail so we crawl back To Jesus, fall back in his arms let him surround us, accept the Grace. We gain strength and do it all over again. Like a dog we just keep licking the same wounds so they never truly heal. we control things ourselves and wonder why we cannot change. We blame God for the consequences that fall upon us. We wonder why we cannot "feel right". The emotions go hay wire and we start to feel guilty. So we throw ourselves into something else to cover up the new found emptiness. We wonder how we got there when days ago we felt so close. For awhile now we have ben doing all the right thingns, doing all the things we think we should be, but yet we feel distant. what happened? Does not our GOD deserve better? How do we always make it about us? We always have good intentions but along the way it gets tweeked and our flesh takes over again. We neglect to daily prepare ourselves and protect ourselves and the ones around us. We neglect to admit the power of the evil aorund us and the strength of the great deciever. He is cunning, clever, brilliant and destructive but yet we go about our lives daily as if he is not there. We cannot afford it. WE NEED JESUS and that is found in the word, in prayer, in selflessness, sacrafice and servant hood that is our hope. Not because we have to because we get to because at the end of it thats all we really have.